struggling valor

oftntmes, we seek 4 wat we want and not wat we nid and so end up being blown up n2 smithereens...wldn't it b nce if we get what we wnt & nid at the sme tme. Yet that seldom hapens...sumtmes no mter hw hard u try 2 b hapi u end up in misery...mybe being right and happy dont just come hand in hand most of the time...
wat am I saying!!! 4 dos who wud gve a damn 2 read dis shit, pls tke it seriously...coz if its hard 2 write dis one, its nothing cmpred to the chain of events dat mde me renounced the Lord...and nw i'm her...bck at His side...but stil life hven't bin easy...jaz rcntly i got a trble blow agn...by far the most dreadful, add up the loneliness and the feeling of uselessness in this poisoned world...damn, it's a deadly cmbntion...
but i'l nvr let my faith in Him falter evr agn...evn if it rly is so damn painful to learn and follow Him...I trust dat all my hardships, all my struggles to be a better person will amount 2 sumthng in the end...dat sumday all my needs will b stsfied, wounds b healed and loneliness b filled up with His far greater love...but i knw it won't b easy...dat doesn't mtr anymre, unto watevr end i'l stay with Him