Heck!

It's Maundy Thursday and after explaining to, which ended up in debating with,
some friends and acquintances about the traditonal "Alay Lakad" to a famous pilgrimage site,
I felt exhausted but relieved.
Heck, I did want to be with them but the critic in me is heating up again.
Why would I walk looooonnnnnnggggggg kilometers if I can reflect in silence?
That's got to be more meaningful than spending three hours walkling and talking
about such trivial things like the lives of someone's neighbors like they do on
SNN and other entertainment show garbage.

I miss writing so darn bad that it feels like having a constant and nagging toothache
and I wish that this abhorent writer's block will be expelled out of the realms of my universe.
It's been almost a year since I wrote anything worthy
and I don't even know that this piece isn't a crap!

Oh dear, I guess I have been to immersed, seeing the worst side of people.
I find it ridiculous how people go so gaga over how the world will end in 2012 in some apocalyptic
interference of the cosmic forces.
Give me a break, humans do not need help in destroying this only habitable planet in the solar system,
we are doing an excellent job already.
We will bring the apocalypse if we don't stop adhering to that golden rule of self-preservation,
thinking of nothing and no one else but ourselves.

...Perhaps I've grown tired of believing that supposedly, men are good by nature, when all around I only see savages in human form, unable to think for themselves, always and forever trying to please, to conform and to appear agreeable. Whatever happened to individualism? I hate the sight of those robots walking around in similar ways as if they were programmed to do so. I always value independence of thought and detest all forms of standardizing rationality, after all
"It's way too easy to live our lives by default. If we are not careful, we can become the sum total of all the expectations others impose on our lives." (E.R. Mcmanus)

Well, at least it's good to know that I'm still my own master and still resistant to ridiculous maxims of this society like it's mangled ideas of success, heroism and progress. And oh yes, the next time someone tells me my ideas are too radical or "it would do no good to be a fundamentalist these days", maybe I will show him the devil that I am...LOL...